Normal People

In the small town of Carricklea, they pretend not to know each other. At school, Connell Waldron is popular, a star of the football team, moving through the hallways with an easy grace that seems to belong to him. Marianne Sheridan is a ghost in those same hallways, lonely, proud, and despised for an intelligence she makes no effort to hide. But after the final bell, in the quiet, sunlit rooms of her family's white mansion, a different reality exists. When Connell comes to collect his mother, Lorraine, from her cleaning job, he and Marianne talk. In the privacy of the kitchen, a strange and thrilling intimacy grows between them, a world sealed off from everyone else. Being alone with her is like opening a door away from normal life and then closing it behind him.

Their connection deepens in secret, in the quiet of his bedroom or hers, a physical and intellectual bond they are determined to conceal. But the pressures of their separate worlds are immense. Connell, terrified of what his friends would think, of the ridicule he would face for being with someone like her, makes a choice that shatters their private world. He asks the most popular girl in school, Rachel, to the Debs formal, leaving Marianne utterly and publicly humiliated. The cruelty of it, and his inability to even explain himself, is a wound that seems impossible to close. She disappears from school, studying for her final exams from the isolation of her bedroom, while Connell is left with a hollow victory and a profound, unshakable shame.

A year later, they are both at Trinity College in Dublin, and the universe has inverted. Marianne, elegant and sharp-witted, has found her people. She moves through parties and seminars with a newfound confidence, surrounded by friends who admire her. Connell, meanwhile, is adrift. Stripped of his small-town status, he is quiet, awkward, and consumed by a crushing sense of not belonging among the wealthy, articulate students who populate his English classes. At a party one night, he sees her across the room, and the shock of it is electric. “Jesus Christ,” she says, her face breaking into a huge, radiant smile. “Connell Waldron! From beyond the grave.” In that moment, she welcomes him into her world, and they begin again.

They fall back into each other's lives, and this time, their relationship is not a secret. They talk for hours in her apartment, sleep in the same bed, and he becomes a fixture in her new, sophisticated circle of friends. He is the only one who truly sees her, and she is the only one who understands the quiet anxieties that churn beneath his calm exterior. Yet the old patterns of miscommunication and insecurity linger. When Connell loses his part-time job and can't afford his rent for the summer, he is too proud, too ashamed of the class difference between them, to ask if he can stay with her. He simply tells her he's moving home. Believing he is leaving her, she agrees coolly that they should see other people, and a chasm of unspoken words opens between them once more.

Apart, their lives drift into darker territories. Marianne enters a relationship with a wealthy, controlling classmate named Jamie, who indulges her desire for submission with a cold cruelty that leaves her feeling empty and degraded. Connell, back in Carricklea, is consumed by loneliness. The news of a friend from school, Rob, taking his own life sends him into a spiral of severe depression and panic attacks. During this time, with Marianne studying abroad in Sweden to escape her life in Dublin, their connection is reduced to emails and late-night video calls. Across the distance, they become each other's lifelines, confessing their fears and pain. He tells her about his crippling anxiety; she hints at the bleakness of her life in Sweden. They are the only two people who can speak the same language.

When Marianne returns, the damage in both their lives is palpable. The relationship with Jamie has left her brittle, and Connell is still struggling under the weight of his depression, seeing a counselor and taking medication. Their friendship is the one stable thing they have. A violent confrontation with Marianne's abusive brother, Alan, finally brings the hidden trauma of her family life into the open. After Alan breaks her nose, she calls Connell, who comes for her without hesitation. He confronts Alan, telling him if he ever touches her again, he will kill him. He takes her away from that house, and in the quiet of his car, he promises to protect her. “I'm not going to let anything like that happen to you again,” he says, and in that promise, something between them is finally healed and made whole.

They are together again, and for the first time, it feels right and uncomplicated. They are normal people. He is editing the university literary magazine; she is working and studying. They live a quiet, shared life in Dublin, sleeping in the same bed in her campus apartment, making coffee for each other in the mornings. He is a better person with her, and she, for the first time, feels deserving of goodness. She is no longer the strange, abrasive girl from school, but a woman who knows she is loved. He is no longer the boy who fears the judgment of others, but a man who knows what matters.

Their newfound peace is tested when Connell receives an offer to attend a prestigious MFA creative writing program in New York. The opportunity is life-changing, a door opening into a future he never thought possible for himself. He tells Marianne he won't go without her, that he would be sick with missing her. But she sees the path that is opening for him, a path she helped clear. Having finally learned to believe in her own worth, she finds the strength to give him this gift. “You should go,” she tells him, her voice steady. “I'll always be here. You know that.” His life is opening out in all directions, and hers is finally her own. They have changed each other, forever.